Chronicles of A Single Dating Mom
Bueno Comadres,
I restarted dating again after being out of the game for a little bit. I have been on those apps and its going relatively decent. I have been on a few dates and for the most part it has been okay. However, there have been some that have left a lot to be desired.
Particularly a man that clearly has emotional issues. We were supposed to meet up for a date and he cancelled last minute. Then he reached out saying he was going through things. I am a mirror for energy so whatever you put out I give back. I guess this man is used to women chasing him when he falls back… anyway I was a little put off by this. Well it has been two weeks and in the last two days he showed his true colors. He is here saying that if I wanted to we could stop communicating and I basically said whatever he wants to do is fine with me. I guess that triggered him and he proceeded to send me multiple texts saying that if I want he can stop texting me and I won’t hear from him again. I said that is okay and good luck. He sent another text saying he wanted to meet up with me this weekend. I didn’t respond when he sent it because it was at odd hours of the night. Then he sent another text this morning that if I didn’t want to speak to him to at least be a decent human and tell him so. I responded that I was going to continue with my previous decision of stopping communication. He then writes back to me that he is “relieved because he wasn’t attracted to me anyway…” 🤡🤡🤡🤡 . After that I have not spoken to him again.
I know this is a long winded way of saying this but I thank God that I have been doing the work to heal because this type of behavior would have had me chasing this man trying to “win/earn” his affection, but I want to shout out my therapist for helping me see that I don’t need to do anything to earn anyone’s love. She also helped me to be able to notice patterns in my dating with the selection of men. I just want to thank God/ the Universe for that. I have also learned to look back and have so much grace with myself. If I would have known better I definitely would have done better. I have started this journey of healing for some time now and I know it is not meant to be linear, but i feel like the past few weeks there have been a lot of break throughs and I am feeling so at peace and Zen at the moment. I value my peace so much and I wouldnt give this up for the world to be honest with you.
In other news, some projects are coming up that I am super excited about. I have been toying with the idea of switching fields or becoming an educational consultant. But it is just popping in my mind from time to time . We started with a new respite worker its a young man that is slightly older than Aidan and I am excited because I feel like it would be nice to have someone around him that could be like a role model for him. Will keep you posted with how that continues to go. There are so many great interviews coming up and a lot of them I am sourcing from just reaching out to the people I want to interview and pitching them the show. A lot of people are delighted to be on and some are hesitant. I don’t take it personal because everyone is on their own journey. Was suppose to have one of the actors from “Love on the Spectrum” on but after saying yes they declined I was a little bummed, but remembered everything happens for a reason. Anywho, I wish you are a healthy and happy holiday season.
Love,
La Comadre Marcy
